KL

so im at KL now, its nice there. I miss my buddies, but its new and different. I kind of like that.


SPORTS MED!!!
Homecoming is next weekend!
Its a four day weekend and hanging with Chelsie
Then next weekend, home alone for the whole weekend!

Summer!

Woot, only 3 1/2 days left of school! I'm so excited for summer, I hope to get my license soon. This saturday I have studio rehersal for my dance recital, June 26 and 27th is my recital! June 28th Pride! Going Camping, WASL tutoring, and Maryland.

What more can I ask for?


:D

whateva.

Biology Final=Done.
Spanish Final= Done.
I only have 2 finals left, woot. Today is an ok day, I'm just glad that espanol final is totally done and I'm confident. Tonight, I'm going over to Leah's to study :D.
Austin told me Tyler was coming over today, who give a fuck. Tyler thinks he is going to get in my pants and that is not going to happen, Austin needs to shut the fuck up and not tell him things that aren't true, guys really piss me off. Tyler is such a douche bag sometimes and he thinks I'm one of those girls that he is always going to get something and he's not. Yeah, I dated him for 2 years, but I do not have feelings for him and im not falling for what he says, bye bye Tyler.

screw my life

so I just found that I did not pass the math wasl and reading wasl, so I might be in special ed math next year. I do not like it when people just tell me oh yeah its so easy, well its not for me and I hate getting made fun of for it.

S Darko ((((:

Meet Frank
This movie is the sequel to the 2001 movie Donnie Darko, Donnie Darko was about this guy who suffers from paranoid schizophrena, he has medication but stops taking it. He begans to sleep walk and he hasn't taken his medication for like 2 weeks now and he meets Frank, Frank tells him that in 28 days, 6 hours, 42 minutes and 12 seconds, the world will end. While he is outside, a jet engine mysteriously crashes through the roof of the Darkos' house, destroying Donnie's bedroom. A few days later Frank comes back through a hullication and urges him to flood the school and he does with an axe and breaks the water main. It's crazy and you cannot predict the ending because it wont happen, if you want to borrow it I have it (:

Nightmare Before Christmas

Band concert went really well, the freshman played some songs from Nightmare Before Christmas :D, one of my favorite movies ever! I love Tim Burton. He is remaking Alice in Wonderland that is going to be fucking awesome. After the band concert Mom, Dad, Vanessa, and I went to DQ and I got a m&m blizzard yummmyy :D.
Went home and watched So you think you can dance. My favorites got on woot woot (:

I'm reading this new book called Unwind, it is so freakin addicting and weird I love it. its about this society where unwanted teens are savaged for their body parts, three runaways fight the system that would "unwind" them. I think that the book is rather confusing, but i love it. It is the weirdest book that I have ever read, ive never read a science fiction book. you should read it. :]

Fuck.

I woke up with horrible fucking cramps, I do not have any tyenol or advil, but I really do need some =/

-Thursday: Band concert, hopefully I am going to the libary to pick up my books that are ready (:
Friday- Hanging out with the girls (:
Saturday: I am going to take my written I really hope I pass it would be my 3rd time taking it if I didnt pass, then dance pictures, i have to get there at 10:38 and I hope that i will get in right away. Then hip-hop picture at 2:38, my class that I teach is at 7:15. THen staying the night at Mikayla's house with Emily :DDD
WOot WOot.

The story of my life.

Reflections of your love have come to wither
I thought I'd done my best to memorize
A picture fades of you and I together
I haven't come to terms with how we said goodbye

Did you really care
Care at all for me
Did you really care
Did you care at all for me

A displaced little girl wept years in silence
And whispered wishes you'd materialize
She pressed on night and day to keep on living
And tried so many ways to keep her soul alive

Did you really care
Care enough for me
Did you really care
Did you care at all for me

If I'm not quite good enough
Or somehow undeserving of
A mother's love
You could've had the decency to give me up
Before you gave me life

Don't you even care
Just the slightest little bit for me
Cause I really need to feel you care
Even once upon a time for me

I need to believe
In my heart of heart of hearts you cared for me
I need to understand
Why you left me there so helplessly

Don't you even care
Care at all for me
Oh...

Reflections of your love have come to wither
I thought I'd done my best to memorize

My weekend May 15-17

Friday: Hayley and Hayley's mom came and got me, we went to DQ. I got a large M&M blizzard :D, they got Carmel Moo-Late. We then drove down to KS. Went back to the house, got things together hung out. Drive ins! We grabbed about 13123981273987 pillows and blankets, put them all in the back, then headed to Top foods. We got coke, rootbeer, gummy worms, hersey's chocolate, jolly ranchers chews, reese. We headed to the theatre, we decided to see X-men and Blast from Girlfriend's past (which I have already seen). We switched spots like 4 times, we were hungry. We got a large cheese pizza so mom, hayley, and I could eat. Next to us was a drunk grandpa and his grandson. Very interesting, I was comfy and warm. X-men was really good.
Saturday: I got home from Hayley's at 12, I was already showered. We had a neighborhood barbecue, I got there at 12:30 and went back and forth till 9:30 pm. I hung out with the neighbors, Sarah came late, Tyler and her went on a date. Yummy hotdogs! :D, we went down to the cows (Minia, Amanda, and I) I was feeding the cows and I hit my hand on the eletric fence, it startled me and I scream haha. Amanda came running up and was like whats wrong?
--I shocked myself with the eletric fence!
-- =OO! Do it again!?
--NO! You do it
--I'll do it, if you do it.
--I just did it.
--So
--So what! CHICKEN!
She did, it was funny.
Then later Sarah came back and we decided to head down to the lake and go to the store, I saw Paris and then we got some icecream at the gas station. When we got back I saw Thalia and the boys, they were all wrestling, so why not. I wreslted with Thalia. I won, I will get some videos up. We were the loudest on the lake there was about 20 of us. it was a blast.

Sunday: I got up at like 6:30, got ready, then headed to seattle. I visited my Great Grandma Dottie Reucof, who is now 90 years old. She lives in a 3 story house by herself. I was very happy that I saw her, she lost a lot of weight, I had to repeat things 5 times and talked loud because she is deaf, but I love her anyways. She is such a wonderful women and no one visits her, its really sad. I try to visit her as much as I can, but my aunt hasn't she has problems with her hips. My dad doesn't visit anyone he is a asshole.
After I got back from Great Grandmas I took a nap! :D
Woke up, made some lunch, and hung out with the girls.
Sarah and I went to bartel drugs, I got 2 air-heads and Berries and Creme starbursts! I AM SO CRAVING THEM RIGHT NOW!

Debating..

I'm debating if I should go to Hamlet tonight, some of my friends say it isn't that good. I already went to the Debate last night, which was fun.
Derek Hipple was there, Leah won her debate.
R and E were flirting last night, and all googly eyes. It was really akward watching them do this, I watched Tyler Walker and Chelsea debate, Ali came :D she sat on me and was fliming the debate. Afterwards Dani gave me a ride home, ate dinner, talked on msn and myspace, then bed time.

--I woke up so many times last night, I dont know why, but it was like between 1 am to 4:30. I kept waking up, it think it was because I had a bad dream.
oh well, its the weekend.
Friday: stay the night at Hayley's and maybe go to hamlet with Ali
Saturday: Party :D (not that kind of party, hanging out at the lake)
Sunday: I am visiting my great-grandma Reukof its been 1 year 1/2 since I have seen her, I'm excited to see her and I miss her.

:D

p.s I haven't been paying attention in bio. I keep blogging =/
opps

Spotlight :D

Results:
Dissapear 1st overall, Diamond Winner
Bloodstream Sapphire Winner
Gravity Emerald Winner

It really makes me mad when people say one thing and do another, I have the mitosis project, D and B are my partners, I did my work, D didn't do his. It makes me mad that he said he would send us our things and he didn't. The mitosis project was due monday it is now what? fricken thursday? I am not going to fail because of him, if he does not send it today, I am going to do his part myself so B and I do not suffer. He will suffer, I am not going to let his doing effect my grade. So, if my grade goes down because of him and my parents yell and bitch at me, its not my fault. Like I said if he doesn't send it to us I am going to do it myself and make sure this project gets turned in.

I know now not to ever work with D again. :D

the song has been on my mind for past 4 days.
It was my friend Jessie's solo last year, I love the song its so addicting.

I have this one song stuck in my head and it is killing me!
It's called In Your Keeping by Jann Arden.

tell me i will never die
take away my pain
rock me gently in your arms
say that ill remain in your keeping

brush the hair out from my eyes
read me a good story
kiss my finger tips good night
say that i can stay in your company

and i know this much is true
i have lived inside of you
you have always seen me through
while i am peacefully sleeping

you have always been my friend
i can see your beauty shining
i will love you till the end
long will i remain in your keeping

and i know this much is true
i have lived inside of you
you have always seen me through
while i am peacefully sleeping
while i am peacefully sleeping

things to do

Things I want to do, if they are in bold I have already done it:
Fly to Maryland
Go to NY and audition for a musical.
LA- dance capitol
Be in two places at once
Left split
Tryout for Gymnastics Junior Year
skinny dipping
gone to Cornish college of the arts spring showcase
Romeo and Juliet- PNB
Alvin Alley
Passed drive test
Visit Grandma Madeleine's grave
Go to Olympia
Stuff as many marsh mellows into my mouth
swimming
Great Wolf Lodge (:
Pride 08'
Pass Geo
See My sister's keeper
Fast and Furious 4
Hot tub
Sleep in Cabin
Camping
New truck
Played badminton
Alison and I have a movie night
Movie night with the girls
Watched Open Season 2 more then 8 times.
New converse
Get hips fixed
Ride horses
Ride Quad
Camping with the family
Boating


My piercings:
-cartedge
-ears
-lip
-tongue
-belly
-industrial

Tattoos:
I want a star on my right hip
Live, Love, Dance in cursive on my right foot

License
Visit Grandma Madeleine's grave, write her a letter, flowers.
Prom
Brusters icecream :D
Lake Meridian
Road trip to California
Pride San Diego
Pierce my lip
Quad (4) pirouettes
Second Turns
Read Impulse and Burned
Read Crank
Visting Grandma Reukauf :D
(I have lots of other things I want to do I just can't think of them =D)

I am so incredibly tired, I had sausage and eggs for dinner last night :D
It was quite delicous. I went into bed at like 9, but I got up at like 6. I woke up to my madre yelling at me to wake up, I have been getting up really late, I barely have time to put on make-up. I don't have any money in my account and its making me upset, I like to eat subs for lunch. I want to eat, if I dont eat I get hunger cramps. I already don't eat at home, so when I dont have money I just super hungry and cranky. Austin gave me his coca puffs and half of his half of bagel.

--My lip is starting to bug me that its not in, I dont want it to get infected. I have to be very careful because I am allergic to nickel. Mi Madre said "You are not allowed to pierce anything on your face, you can do what ever the fuck you want when your 18". :D

Dedication #1

Leah Baird (:

She is my bff.

May 11, 2009

My weekend is over, friday I was going to the movies with Ali, but she couldnt go. Instead I went with Jordan to kent station, hung out with Jordan and Robert for a little bit, then saw a gold digger when she already has a man. Then tried to go to the libary, but it was closed I hung out with Josh, raymound, and these other peoplez. I saw Ghost of Girlfriend's past with Jordan and Elaine, it was really funny. I knew all of the songs in the movie lol. It is one of my favorite movies, we got some cow chip cookies, skittles, and popcorn. Then Jodan's mom drove me home (:

Saturday I woke up and got ready and took a shower, then I was working on my science project. At noon Bre came and got me (:
We drove in her pretty red mustand, went to the super mall and had lunch. On our way home (Bre lives in Bonney Lake) we visited my cousin Brandy at work, we got vanilla milk shakes which was quite delicious!!! :D
We headed to Walmart and Target to get some things for mother days.
Also we went to blockbuster and got Ghost Town? It was sooo freakin funny! He has a british accent.
Then we waited for Brandy and I pierced my lip.
It didnt hurt that much, it was more time consuming to get it through the thickest layer of my skin. We picked up Demi and went to the park and talked and stuff it was lots of fun.
(I had to re-pierce it on sunday)
We came back got food and went up to Bre's room, popped the movie in and watched it.
I fell asleep, well kinda.
Then Demi went home and Bre put in Tropic thunder it was really stupid so I slept :D
Kodia (Bre's dog) kept trying to cuddle with me lol.
This weekend was fun.

?!?!?!

My weekend didn't follow the way it was suppose to be. Even though mom did tell me to stay home I did most of them, I hung out on the computer and watched lots of tv. I also hung out with my neighbors and watched Bean which was quite funny, some of A Walk to Remember that is one of my favorite movies ever! We also went to the store I got lots and lots of candy this weekend, I had hersey's cookies and creme bar, hersey's milk chocolate, oreos, pizza, milk duds, sweet and sour starburts lots of JUNK FOOD!

=P

Weekend.

I am totally free this weekend, my mom says that I have to stay home this weekend since I have been gone like every weekend. I can go over to my neighbor's house, which I already go to every day. I will probably bake cookies or something, then eat lots of popcorn.
Over the weekend if I am with Sarah, Amanda, and Dominique (neighbors) I am usually getting help with Kingdom Hearts or watching 5 billion movies all day. Last time we had a movie night, we watched Donnie Darko and Butterfly Effect.
Donnie Darko I have seen it before, but it has been a while. I think that his bunny friend I think his name is like Fred, but he was incredibly freaky, when I was younger I was terrified of people that are dressed up, and the bunny Fred was. He was so creepy looking. Donnie Darko is such a dark, mysterious, creepy movie its awesome! I don't remember the end though, it was very weird through out the whole movie. Donnie has to take meds because he does weird crazy things, but if you haven't seen the movie, GO GET IT!
Butterfly Effect is also incredibly awesome! It is probably one of my favorite movies.
What about you?

Dance?

My life revolves around dance. It is my most favorite thing to do! It my thing to just let my emotions out and it gains lots of flexibility, technqiue, confidence, and

i just love it SO much.

Why Dance?

Dance has endless physical, mental and personal benefits for people of all ages, shapes and sizes! Overall dance truly cultivates the whole person in so many fascinating ways but especially in terms of reasoning, well-being, creativity, self-expression, imagination and being goal-oriented.

Physical:
1. Fitness and physical health
*Improves circulatory system
*healthy heart and lungs
*stronger muscles
*stronger bones/reduced risk of osteoporosis
*More overall energy!
2. Overall Improved Fitness and weight control
3. Improves coordination, balance, agility, stamina and flexibilty.
4. Better posture and increased physical aura of poise.

Mental:
1. New movement creates new dendrite connections to improve brain function .
2. Improves hand/eye coordination which leads to stronger reading and writing skills.
3. Creates stronger memorization and recall skills .
4. Relax the mind and relieves stress.

Personal:
1. FUN! Have a great time learning new steps and expression your self!
2. Encourages etiquette, respect, discipline and responsibility.
3. Promotes self confidence through in-class improvement, on-stage performances and an overall sense of achievement.
4. Meet life long friends that love to dance as much as you do!
5. Reveal self discoveries and become more aware of your body both inside and out!
6. Encourages a strong focus and a way to express your body both inside and out!

My BBFFFFFFFFFFFF

She is the one and only girl that knows all of my secrets and my life. She is the love of my life! This was like a couple years ago, I have so many memories with her its quite amamzing...

I love you Hordy!

(:

My favorites

My BFFS :]

Jordan Williams is also one of them, I just dont have a picture of her and I my freakin computer crashed! :O

Aunt Cindy.

I just found out she is getting released from the hospital and is at my grandma's house, if she was at her house in enumclaw it would take a long time to get her to the hospital if something goes wrong again. She lives like 15 miles from the main road and there is lots of pot holes so it would effect her stomach and may hurt her

Are any of you obessed with anything?

I am obessed with animal crackers, I just think that they are SOOO delicious!

I don't know why I just started craving them like BAM!

Dance is also another one of those things I am the most obessed with! By far.

I am also obessed with wild berry starburts! (:

Burt bee's chapstick

June 28, 2008.

PRIDE!

Is anyone going? I am most defintley going! WOOT, I'm excited.
I'm going with:
Leah B.
Sirbrina G. (a shot at love 2)
Rebekah C. (double a shot at love)
Ali W.
Tae (my girlfriend).
Joshy (my gay bffl)
Many others to add haha.
So, yes I do know Sirbrina from a shot at love 2, I text and call her all the time. She works at Cowgirls bar where I will be at when I turn 21 hanging with her. Rebekah and I are friends we talk and I met her after the show which was awesome! I would be going with Brittany Rae Leach (a shot at love 2), but her and Sirbrina aren't friends anymore because they got into a fight, Brittany is a bitch I cant really stand her.
So, I am incredibly excited to go. I didnt get to go last year which upset me. Ali and I are going to south center this weekend, go see Crank 2, and get some rainbow gear. I have 2 rainbow belts, bracelets, and knee-high socks! I need some more rainbow things. Then I am staying the night at Ali's house (:

Monday =(

I found out that my Aunt Cindy is in the hospital, she has cancer and I guess she has a really bad bladder infection and her immune system is low, she had to be put on a blood transfusion. I am going to see her today, I really wish that she would get better.

(:

Weekend.

Friday: We did not go to the drive-ins which really pissed me off because Hayley's mom thought it was going to rain and it never did. She claims we didnt have enough room and we did we were in the SUV that can put lots of people in it. She said she would pay for me, instead we went to kent station to go see I love you, Man, but since we weren't over 17 we couldnt go so we just saw 17 again. Which I thought was ok, I mean it was funny. I think my favorite line out of that movie was "I got kicked off the cheerleading squad for being to flexible". As the slutty girl was hitting on that kid. It was really cheesy on the stupid love story. I also liked his roomate, he was OBESSED with Star Trek, Star Wars, and all that geeky junk, his house in completely covered in that wizard stuff, like Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. He has a race car that is his bed and he is super rich. He meets this girl when his roomate Zach Efron (I dont remember his name in the movie-i forgot) he inrolled him back in to school since he turned 17 again, and he had the hots for the principal and she wont date her students parents, then later they were at a date and started talking in the star trek language (I think) which was fricken hilarous, then later they were in his race car and she was like a princess and he was the king or something it was really weird. (wow- is that enough?)

Saturday- So, instead of staying the night at Hayley's I left at 11:15, got home, then just started texting and got up at 5:30 and I was hella tired. I had to get in the shower, I went over to Dani's at 6:40ish then watched her get ready and played with chubaka (her dog). Then Tony came over to Dani's we went to starbucks and we all look like freakin hobos because we have sleeping bags, pillows, and like suitcases and a duffel bag. I got hot coco and old fashion donut. Then we were waiting for the gray van to go camping. It arrived it met Jakema and Julius who are awesome, and some other kiddos I dont really care about lol. I took us about 3 hours to get to Camp Parson (which is a camp for boy scouts ;D) we went to safeway to grab some food in Olympia.
OLYMPIA- where I use to go every other weekend to see my step mom and biological asshole (which is my dad) I remember things by visual pictures so when I see all of the things it brings back memories of my biological asshole and his wife. We went past tumwater which is wear my step mom lives (well I think) I do not know what has happenend with my biological asshole and his wife I havent heard or seen from my dad in like 7 years which is fucking pathetic because he done this to all of his kids. I think they got a divorce, but he wouldnt pay that amount of money, so I have 7 siblings if they are still married, if they aren't then 4. Do you see how confused I am? Its really annoying that I dont know like anything about my biological asshole anymore and his whores.
Annywayysss.....
Back on track so after we got there we had lots of fun, I walked around with Dani and Jameka the beach was SOO pretty. The cabin was really nice, but there is mice (ick >=[)
That night, we got some wood, I know how to cut would with a AXE now YES! Made a fire and got some smores and stuff, then went inside and watched high school musical 3, which I think is incredibly cheesssyyyy!!! Before the the bonfire Dani, Jameka, and I were in our room and I saw a mouse under my bed I freaked cause thats just disgusting and we freaked out and decided to sleep in a tent which was hell of a lot funner.
Hamed?! He is so creepy, so.. he has like this huge crush on me and he isnt even that cute. He barely speaks english and he is iraqi. So he is always looking at me, he tried holding my hands like 4 times, then when we were chopping the wood and he tried putting his arm around me, then he made his move and tried kissing me (which was gross) he was trying to get with me the whole weekend. I just ignored him and he texted me yesterday and was like why arent you talking to me blah blah blah, I just didnt text him back.
That was my weekend, what about yours?

Gymnastics <3

My ladies (:

Thanks for a wonderful season, love you all.

R.I.P Jaheem

I was looking up some stuff on myspace and my friend Kali posted a bullitin that this guy named Jaheem hung himself because someone bullyied him for being gay, which I think is pretty sad. Bullying is not nice, I remeber 5 billion differnt stories on people killing themselves because of bullying, people should just stop. I dont understand how the bully doesn't relize how much he/she is hurting that person. There has been a couple suicides due to this thing called sexting? Which I think is gross, sending naked pictures of yourself, how do you not relize that there is going to be problem or gossip about you doing that. Like that one story about the cheerleader who got their naked pictures sent out to the whole school and even on the computer screens at the school. The story was that they were talking a shower together because they didnt have enough time and they have already seen each other naked cause of gymnastics and cheer, so they decided to go out of the shower and take a picture of themself. One about a couple and the girl sent a picture to her boyfriend and the boyfriend was a total butthead and sent it out to everyone! She was bullyied so much she commited suicide. =(

That's really sad, people need to stop.

People are strange.

I have this friend that she met this guy online I think it was like gaia or something, she says she is freakin in love with him? I mean hello! It might be some creepy old guy that's talking to her, even though they talk online or over the phone- txting, and on myspace. I just don't understand how someone can love someone a whole lot and never met them before, I can see maybe with family you love them, but have never met them, but not someone you just met online, it's a little weird. He lives in Cali, she txts him all the time, and says she is MADLY IN LOVE WITH HIM!?!?! People are just weird and strange I think. I asked her why she loved him so much, she was just like i dont know I just do, he's amazing. Has any of your friends ever done this?

Weekend! (:

I'm super excited for the weekend, I am pretty busy aannnddd it's sunny (:
Tonight I'm going to the Drive-ins with my home dawg Hayley, but I dunno what movie we are seeing. Saturday threw Sunday I'm going camping with the Cascade challenge thing, I get to sleep in cabins- which is a 1st. I camp, but in a camper or tent, never in a cabin haha I sound lame.